January 26, the day I was born.

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It’s my birthday today. I was born on a Saturday. My dad came after I left my mum’s belly. In the room with many newborns, he first pointed to another baby, assuming it was me. Then he recognized his eyes in mine and knew it was me. I look like him; the shapes of my eyebrows, my lips, the bend in my back, the way I laugh. My hands, feet, my inwards turning knees, and hair look like my mum.

It isn’t only that.

Thank you annem and babam for my drive, for my willpower, for my love, for my compassion, for my determination, for my kindness, for my spirit, for the artist in me, for the entrepreneur in me, for the athlete in me, for my stubbornness, for my writings, for my listening ears, for the cleaner in me, for the coach and teacher in me, for being a daughter, for being a sister, for being a friend, and most importantly for being me.

It’s is not only my birthday today. Today, January 26, it’s a tribute to you!

Canim annem ve babam!

Being in and out of the circle.

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When we are in a circle we know what to do, we know how to act, because we have done it multiple times. We have set up this circle and we have trained ourselves on how the circle goes around by applying strategies, trying, failing, doing it one more time until it clicks. After a certain time we have set up the system and the circle goes around as we do as well. Our daily actions turn into habits that keep the circle going around. We often don’t even need to think about it, because we are on automatic pilot.

Sometimes the circle goes around but we know it can be better. Sometimes we feel stuck in this circle. We want to get out, but it feels so comfortable that we don’t. And what would happen if we leave the circle for a bit? Will it still function? And maybe a better question is, will we still function?

When we leave the circle we give ourselves permission to look at the circle from an angle that we haven't looked at before. Things become Crystal clear because we are not in the circle we are out of the circle. We can observe how the circle used to go around, what went well, and what maybe didn’t go well. Because we are not involved we think about solutions how to make the circle even a better one, a one that is better and contributes better to ourselves and the world.

Then we go back, back in the circle. Apply our new strategies, try them out, create new habits and create better circles.

And then after a while, we repeat the process again and create a circle better than the previous!

Nature

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I am green.

I am the sound of the birds.

I am the curves in the trees.

I am the whistling leaves.

I am the brown.

I am the acorn.

I am the bugs.

I am the wind.

I am nature.

I am right here.